Date:	2005-07-12 21:49
Subject:	hmmm...not too sure about this...
Security:	Public
Mood:	peaceful
Music:	...the dead

Part Expert Kisser

You're a kissing pro, but it's all about quality and not quantity You've perfected your kissing technique and can knock anyone's socks off And you're adaptable, giving each partner what they crave When it comes down to it, your kisses are truly unforgettable

Part Freaky Kisser

When you kiss, you want to experience something new A new technique, a new partner, a new piercing... And your own personal kissing style is very unpredictable There's no saying where your tongue or hands will go

Date:	2005-07-09 23:57
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	pissed off
Music:	snoring

why is it that people (aka "bartenders") feel that its appropriate to serve individuals shot after shot after shot after shot after shot after beer after shot after shot after shot after beer after shot in a matter of no more than 3 hours? that kind of business should not really happen...morose circumstances or not. that kind of thing will put a person in the hospital. thank god people have people around them to call the bar and get people cut off. that's right, CUT OFF! unfortunately, not timely enough. but people had to work 9 hours on a saturday. thank god people have friends that care about them enough to carry their drunk asses home. sorry, but i'm pissed. for lots of reasons. bartenders, te-kill-ya, death, sadness, anger, frustration. its a crazy fucking world that we live in. i don't understand a lot of things that happen in it. maybe i'm not supposed to. but i am irritated with the way things are right now. it sucks.

this summer has been, to me, a roller coaster of emotions that i can't quite explain in detail over a live journal post. i'm not sure i could explain it in "keri b talk" either. it is what it is. a book should be written about it.

i'm exhausted. its been a long 48 hours or so.

k

Date:	2005-07-06 07:37
Subject:	got sleep?
Security:	Public
Mood:	tired
Music:	birds chirping

it is extremely early in the morning for me...ie, its before 8am. :(

got woken up last night.
did not get to sleep very well.
could not sleep this morning.

i'm paranoid...i'm delirious...i'm posting before 8am...work is going to s u c k. but i actually will be there on time today. my co-workers will be shocked. but i will probably still get teased for this or that. its inevitable, really. i'm hoping that softball games get rained out today. i checked the forecast and it looks like much rain is headed our way. we'll shall see.

since i haven't posted a whole lot, i would like to say thanks to everyone who came/participated in some way with the show. your efforts were greatly appreciated. :)

i suppose i should get ready for work.

Date:	2005-06-23 19:47
Subject:	i liked this...
Security:	Public
Mood:	good
Music:	dave

The most destructive habit..............................Worry

The greatest Joy.......................................Giving

The greatest loss........................Loss of self-respect

The most satisfying work.......................Helping others

The ugliest personality trait.....................Selfishness

The most endangered species.................Dedicated leaders

Our greatest natural resource.......................Our youth

The greatest "shot in the arm"..................Encouragement

The greatest problem to overcome.........................Fear

The most effective sleeping pill................Peace of mind

The most crippling failure disease....................Excuses

The most powerful force in life..........................Love

The most dangerous pariah..........................A gossiper

The world's most incredible computer................The brain

The worst thing to be without.... ................... Hope

The deadliest weapon...............................The tongue

The two most power-filled words......................."I Can"

The greatest asset......................................Faith

The most worthless emotion..........................Self-pity

The most beautiful attire..............................SMILE!

The most prized possession......................... Integrity

The most powerful channel of communication.............Prayer

The most contagious spirit.........................Enthusiasm

Date:	2005-06-08 17:41
Subject:	my wednesday...
Security:	Public
Mood:	okay
Music:	Indigo Girls

so its not the end of the summer and i get to post again. good news for sure. its nice to have internet on a regular basis. but there's always more to bitch about...isn't there?! lets start with the idiots over at SUNCOM. they've got some serious issues with how they do business. i've spent the last 4 days trying to get to the bottom of my texting situation. after multiple transfers and misinformation up to my ears, i got my answer is less than a minute. "um...we are aware of the situation and there is nothing that we can do for you right now". WHAT?! i used to say that "texting was the devil"...now that i am with-cellphone and without it, its frustrating as hell. bygones.

aside from the fiasco above, today was a sad day. the owner of the company that i work for died on sunday. ovarian cancer. not something i would wish upon a single soul in this world. i don't know. i'm funny about death. i have a hard time with it. freaks me out and i have a hard time with it which bothers me a lot. this woman, Kay, started a company so that people with mental retardation/mental illness could have a better life than being trapped in institutions...and to be offered a life of opportunity much the same that you or i have. and she's gone now. and these individuals are rightfully sad and were extremely expressive today with their feelings. it got me to thinking about relationships with people and how often we focus on shit that is just not important. ...and the things that are important...fall to the wayside for one reason/excuse or another. the hippie in me is screaming "free hugs" right now!! i don't know. not trying to change the world in a day, but i have a hard time dealing with the way people think and act sometimes. myself included. i guess none of us are perfect and that's probably the point. sometimes the world we live in in SO not fair. life is not fair. but we have to keep going. make do with what we have. appreciate what we have. and really, we take too much for granted anyway. we all do. i want world peace eventually, and in the event that it never happens, i'll settle for small attempts at focusing on what's really important in life. ....and "free hugs". ---and here i am bitching about my cell phone!!!

now i gotta go play some softball games. maybe i'll actually get on base tonight!

Date:	2005-06-06 17:47
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	ecstatic
Music:	Seal

i think its an understatement to say that i am overjoyed with the fact that the people at Cox finally took their thumbs out of their asses and got the internet back up at Abby's house. phew! i was beginning to lose hope...not to mention that the league business was falling by the wayside because of it. anyway, its nice to be back up and running.

its june. wow. time flies when you don't really have much of a clue what you're doing. its been a good summer thus far.

things that are good: trips to nags head! parties. hanging out at the house you used to live at until 4am. friends. wine...in any form. reconnecting with old friends. being teased and being able to take it. buy 1-get 1 free smokes...and being able to smoke them in your office. having the internet back up. learning the game of chess. not knowing what is going to happen tomorrow. being able to share.

things that are not good: drama, drama, drama. confusion. bossy friends. having to tighten up. not having the internet/email. not being able to share. not knowing what is going to happen tomorrow. trust issues. insecurity. parking tickets.

random. hopefully i will be able to post again before the end of the summer.

---never put any faith in cox. it will almost always result in disappointment!

Date:	2005-05-21 11:01
Subject:	hellooooooo
Security:	Public
Mood:	good
Music:	jazz

**catch the Antigone Rising reference as the subject. if you haven't heard them, you need to. get a to-do list and put them on there. you can purchase their new CD at your local starbucks .

i'm not too sure what to say for the masses to see. its saturday morning and beautiful outside, but i'm sitting at the computer. i'm a bit out of my element with house/teenager sitting for a couple days...but paying friends back to restore good karma is a must. and the kids are cool. its nice to be in the beach for a short time...although, i'm growing fond of norfolk. too close to the bar though!!! hmmm...i guess that's not such a bad thing. its come in handy on those "i'm on the wine" nights.

i'm so not okay with putting my shit out there!

but there is some stuff to say. ...and anyway, i feel like my life is an open book recently so what the hell. i'll be as dodgy and evasive as humanly possible. once upon a time there was a girl...lol. er, lets just say that the past couple of months have been, interesting and fucked up at best. new things, just in time for the last year of my 20's. right on. new job, new living situation, new friends, new experiences, new outlook. the last one is my favorite. :) its nice to see things differently for once and not be so consumed with how the other half is living. i'm definitly learning who my friends are throughout the process. and i'm completely learning more about who i am and what i want out of life. blah blah blah. the key word there is LEARNING. i'm still not too sure what i want to be when i grow up. i feel like i have been a grown up since birth, and maybe that's part of my problem. i need to be a little kid again. who knows. BUT I'M GOING TO BE 30 THIS YEAR!!!!!

where is this entry going???? i guess i'll just say that people are going to do what they are going to do no matter what you think, feel, do, or say about it. my biggest lesson is to learn to have control over myself and not worry about shit anymore. ho hum...i suppose i should do some of my full time volunteer work, AKA softball shit. its never ending i tell you. i've got 2 shows to get ready for in the next month. fun, fun, fun. i should do something for myself today...but we'll see. hmmm...i did sleep in today!!! i'm gonna count that. its all good.